Archive for August, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LULU!!

as of today it’s my best friends birthday!! (madri laish bes i kept typing wedding.. and i constantly kept deleting it. weird!)

she’s 17 today! one more year and you get to drive! well you get the license and i get to do everything else, since you don’t know where anything is… oh well!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!!!

on another note: this will be the last wednesday that’s going to be a weekend… i’m so going to miss wednesdayzz πŸ˜₯

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Do You Want Me To Say “Ta-Da” To Make It Seem More Like A Trick?

* ok so my 2 brothers and dad just went on a little vacation an hour ago and now the house is all mine!!! i mean my eldest (oldest? i’m not sure) brother ‘joos’ doesn’t spend anytime in the house.. either he’s at work or the other place which i cannot name πŸ˜› and my sister is the same.. either she’s at work or upstairs in her room doing god knows what! and ma mah! is asleep the whole day (she’s that kind of mother.. who stays up the whole night watching old arabic movies and sleeps til 6 p.m) anyway, sleeps the whole day and goes to the hospital when she wakes up. so that’s basically just me in the house!! which so rocks!!

*^ been playing scrabble alot lately.. and i just kicked my brothers’ ass before he went to the airport! it’s just mind blowing what words you make up and when you check the dictionary you actually find out that it’s actually a word!!

*^@ tomorrow is my best friends’ birthday!! yaaaaay! frex yal chalba get ready for that great ride!!

*^@! i’ve been reading invictus alot lately.. don’t know why.. but i still think it’s beautiful πŸ˜€

*^@!% so i’ve been counting the times i’ve cussed for a week!! and i’m ashamed to write the times i’ve sweared.. i really need to cut back on the cussing… LOL!! i actually almost believed that i would do that LOL! so i need to know if you want me to post it or not.. cause i really don’t wanna seem like a whore πŸ™‚

*^@!%& remember this? yeah everytime we get to that street, i look at my right and expect to see a car coming towards me.. is that fucked up or what?

*^@!%&$ does anybody know where i can get these shoes? i’ve been looking everywhere!! i really want them :/

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Β *^@!%&$# and i’m off to bed *yawn* ^_^ v

The Reason Why John Steinbeck Is My Favorite Author…

  • β€œThe writer must believe that what he is doing is the most important thing in the world. And he must hold to this illusion even when he knows it is not true.”
  • β€œChange comes like a little wind that ruffles the curtains at dawn, and it comes like the stealthy perfume of wildflowers hidden in the grass.”
  • β€œWhere does discontent start? You are warm enough, but you shiver. You are fed, yet hunger gnaws you. You have been loved, but your yearning wanders in new fields. And to prod all these there’s time, the Bastard Time.”
  • β€œThis I believe: That the free, exploring mind of the individual human is the most valuable thing in the world. And this I would fight for: the freedom of the mind to take any direction it wishes, undirected. And this I must fight against: any idea, religion, or government which limits or destroys the individual.”
  • β€œWe are lonesome animals. We spend all our life trying to be less lonesome. One of our ancient methods is to tell a story begging the listener to say — and to feel — ”Yes, that’s the way it is, or at least that’s the way I feel it. You’re not as alone as you thought.””
  • β€œAs happens sometimes, a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment. Then gradually time awakened again and moved sluggishly on.” —of Mice and Men
  • β€œI have named the destroyers of nations: comfort, plenty, and security – out of which grow a bored and slothful cynicism, in which rebellion against the world as it is, and myself as I am, are submerged in listless self-satisfaction”
  • β€œI hold that a writer who does not passionately believe in the perfectibility of man has no dedication nor any membership in literature.”
  • β€œIn human affairs of danger and delicacy successful conclusion is sharply limited by hurry. So often men trip by being in a rush. If one were properly to perform a difficult and subtle act, he should first inspect the end to be achieved and then, once he had accepted the end as desirable, he should forget it completely and concentrate solely on the means. By this method he would not be moved to false action by anxiety or hurry or fear. Very few people learn this.” —East of Eden
  • β€œIn the hearts and minds of the people, the grapes of wrath were growing heavy for the vintage.” –The Grapes of Wrath
  • β€œAfter the bare requisites of living and reproducing, man wants most to leave some record of himself, a proof, perhaps, that he has really existed. He leaves his proof on wood, on stone, or on the lives of other people. This deep desire exists in everyone, from the boy who scribbles on a wall to the Buddha who etches his image in the race mind. Life is so unreal. I think that we seriously doubt that we exist and go about trying to prove that we do.”The Pastures of Heaven
  • β€œFor the world was changing, and sweetness was gone, and virtue too. Worry had crept on a corroding world, and what was lost–good manners, ease and beauty? Ladies were not ladies anymore, and you couldn’t trust a gentleman’s word… Oh, strawberries don’t taste as they used to and the thighs of women have lost their clutch!”East of Eden

FUCK…

i know i should visit. i know that i shouldn’t just sit and do nothing..

i should be there!! but i just can’t… i can’t go, and see her like that.. i just can’t

and i feel so bad for not being strong enough to go, and i feel so guilty about it!

i should be able to visit her! FUCK! i am such a coward..

i really don’t know why i can’t go.. and it’s not because i don’t want to, because i do!! and it’s not because i don’t want to see her in that state of vulnerability.. it’s because i can’t see her like that and act like everything is ok, like everything is fine. i’ll break down and start panicking and you know she already has her plate full and she can’t have more weight on her shoulder.. and it’s not like she’s telling me to visit her. she doesn’t even talk about her, which makes me feel more guilty.

i can’t go… shit..

Your Lips, My Ass, They Should Meet…

—i’ve been playing kout alot lately.. and i’ve been kicking ass!

—–been getting writers’ block. it’s not really writers block. i have a story or whatever i normally write lined up, it’s just that i don’t know *how* to write it… does that make sense??

—i’ve been invited to be interviewed for a book, don’t know if it’s legit or not. although i’ve checked the website and all.. still confused though :/

—–i’m sooo missing my bitches!!! i’m constantly being reminded by you guys..

—i’ve been wanting to see a few movies lately.. like toy story, mars attack, three men and a baby, ace ventura and the bone collector.

—–i’ve been talking from the 70’s for a while. i have no idea what’s wrong wit me!! i’ve been saying things like: narly, rad, groovy and many more… i need help.

—i’ve been going out with my friend alot, and we’ve been going out wit their driver, and his brakes!! bin ga7ba!!! i mean wtf!! they suck ass!! damn! he’s a terrible driver!

—–so i have this sofa bed in my room. and i don’t know why, but i’ve been sleeping on it. there’s nothing wrong wit my bed. it’s just i don’t sleep in my bed.

—i started to count how many times i cuss, i’ll post it by this time next week.

—–i wanna play basketball!!

—i miss my brothers!!!

—–i’ve run out of things to say.

Do You Want To Know What The Worst Thing About Life Is?

Timing. Sometimes its timing is shit.

Frequently Heard Songs

Jack’s Mannequin – The Mixed Tape

Diddy Feat. Mario Winans – Through The Pain (She Told Me)

Daft Punk – Around The World

Timbaland Feat. The Hives – Throw It On Me

Timbaland Feat. Keri Hilson, D.O.E. & Sebastian – The Way I Are

Bone Thugs-N-Harmony Feat. Mariah Carey and Bow Wow – Lil Love

Plain White T’s – Take Me Away

Carlos Santana Feat. Musiq – Nothing At All

Common – The 6th Sense

Edwin McCain – I’ll Be